NOTHING TO SAY.........

                              Yeah , really I got forced to say this....... Not to anyone else , but to myself. Don't know what to write here. Because I don't have anything to say. I am on a pity feeling for myself nowadys. Just because of my ineptness to speak out at certain occasions. This is somewhat like a letter that I am wriiting to myself . 

We often find out some suicide notes from anywhere around a person who committed suicide. That note , is something, which helps us to draw a clear image about that particular person's opinion about himself or herself  rather deciphering out the reason behind his or her such an extreme decision.We can dig out the answer ,for whether they were satisfied with the way they lived their life, from such notes.  This , I could say , is  a suicidal note of mine. Because , I don't wish to live this life everafter, similarly  I lived till date. A reason , for sure , is something that everyone will probe for ,in all such notes. For the sake of their happiness, yeah , definitely I can also pin point a reason. It is summed up in a single word - REGRET.  Regretting for what ? There are many...But , in a way , they all will meet at a single point. 'My inefficiency to speak up at certain times.' Now , moments are passing , each one of us warns me about my decision to shut my mouth most of the times, and it is not for many occasions, but for a single one. Those moments , will push me into the deeply digged pit of utter grievance. My tears knew no bounds then. Can't say that , I got badly destructed with such a deed of mine,that I am unable to control my tears. I was actually in a dilemma , that whether it acts like any obstacle in the basement of my ambitious future. Definitely not. I got the answer for it today.....On July 1st.......All that leads me to my helplessness to stop my tears, is just because of one reason that, I AM GOING TO MISS MY LOVED ONES.....I should say MY LOVED ONE........Everyone can blame me for  this, because I have not uttered even a single word and ofcourse nothing to point out any wrong in them.Because , it is me who kept  SILENCE , a weapon which can save the lie and neglect the truth. So I have Nothing To Say...................